Yesterday wasn't a good day either. I called him yet again. Get booted out of his life yet again. So many "yet again". When will I finally learn my lesson?
I want him to be happy. And he doesn't loves me anymore. He wun be happy if I bother him, This is something I have to remind myself every now and then.
I have no idea what happen between us that lead us to this state. Just a few months back we still had forever ahead of us, and now its just all memories. A memory so precious to me. I really do want to know if its as precious to him as well.
He has never been so mean to me in the years we have known each other.
I asked a friend of mine,
.j a s says:
u think km will think tt our memories are precious
.j a s says:
or he cant wait to forget them?
friend says:
i think
friend says:
as a guy
friend says:
he is forgetting them at a fast pace.
I want to be happy again. I want it to happen so badly. Please help me to be happy again. Please give me strength to carry on what I have yet to do. Please let me go into a coma and wake up forgetting everything if that is how I have to move on. But please return my precious memories of him when I have moved on.
