This blog is suppose to be a collection of my happy moments, my perfect time, and it was meant to be for Teddy. But over time it became "my" blog, I have such a huge number of post related to me instead of Teddy.
But I wasn't true to myself even from the beginning of this blog. I wanted to pen down so so so many things about my bf (then). But because he is a private person and do not agree with putting such a huge amount of information on the internet. Hence he was left out many a times.
This blog has certain truth in it but alot of other things are deliberately left out as well. I wanted to have the courage to pen down how I feel and not feel guilty of hurting anybody. Its such a mixed feeling. ahhh. But I guess I will never be so irresponsible to be able to pen down such stuff.
I just saw ce's blog. she has snowie flakes on her blog. and it certainly adds a joyous feeling to the festive season that's round the corner. However I dun feel that happy at all. I am not in the mood to celebrate. I liked Christmas, I always do. But since the misfortune befall onto me, I am in no mood to celebrate at all.
Gift exchanging is jus a tradition to me now. It bear no true meaning, and I feel no joy in sharing at all now. Seriously, I hope I could sleep December away and skip away with all the crap. ahhh..
bad bad mood today I wonder why?
Test in like 3hrs, but I haven even finish studying, but I'm not at all worried. CRAP!!
My only resolution for 2010, NO MORE VULGARITIES!
Everything is so damn meaningless.
I wish I could find my true calling.
Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle all the way (ahhhh! SHUT UP!)
