Ever since TB I didn't really control myself from not contacting him. But since last thursday I had been restraining myself from any possible contacts. I kept all the stuff he gave me and all the piccies of us in my room.
But everytime I view my blog, our piccies will be right there at the top right hand corner. And it was labelled "my precious".
The relationship with him is of course not being forgotten yet. And it will always be part of me and its very very precious to me. Just that I am no longer the precious girl in his life. But he will always be that precious to me, that's why I have no intention to remove the pic even though we have broken up.
I might be deluding myself in some sense. I might still bear hope in wanting to get back with him. But after every hopeful thoughts I had, I will slap myself awake with the truth that we are not possible anymore!
Some days I have to remind myself several times a day. But things are getting way better now. I make plans to meet my friends. I dun check my hp several times a day. I just want to be happy now.
I was angry with many people at some point of time. But I realise they are just concern about me and want me to wake up asap. Thanks peeps!
