But...
I have been having mixed feelings on several things...
1) My job!!!
-> Should I continue my "dream"? It isn't what it seems to be, not as glamourous and fun. Its terrible hardwork and I miss being in Singapore! I really miss that!
2) My part-time job!!!
-> I am having a hard hard time trying to cope with everything. When I am in Singapore, I have to go for viewing. And it SUCKS! I am tired! Boo.
3) My parents!!! =(
-> They lost alot of weight. My heart is aching. Both my mom and daddy are sick! =( I feel guilty seeing them in this state. And yet there is little to what I can do. =(
4) My addiction!!!
-> I have a serious serious addiction -->> S.H.O.P.P.I.N.G! I cant seems to stop shopping. I have a very strong urge to spend. My closet is bursting and the worst thing is that I have brand new stuff not worn yet and I will happily buy new stuff. I HATE IT.
CONCLUSION:
I hate it. I am leading a very confused life. I have little control over myself. I lose my temper at my love one (I really dun mean it). I really wish I could quit my job and have a stable lifestyle, as in able to be in town, but I need to have the cash.
ARGH-NESS!
